combating work woes
You’re probably thinking that I complain a lot about work. I would agree. I wasn’t always like this. I don’t know when the negativity switch turned on, but it did. I don’t like feeling this way either and I’m sure you’re sick of reading about it.
Too bad. Here I go again.
Today I woke up drowsy and again, dreading going to work. I dragged my feet out of bed, boiled some eggs for breakfast, prepped my lunch and got ready. All of this done without a smile on my face. All I could think about was when the day would be over.
I walked to work listening to an upbeat Spotify channel. It did not work. I was anticipating all the negative stuff that ‘could’ happen at work. I was feeling so pessimistic about everything that day.
Have you ever had one of those days at work where nothing seemed to be going your way. Whatever could go wrong, did go wrong? This was not the case for me. It was another typical day but it didn’t feel like it. In my head, I guess I was just making everything out to be worse than it was. Whatever was happening, I made it negatively affect me. I was such a downer and I knew it. I didn’t even want to fake it. Not even a large chai tea could help me get out of whatever funk I was in.
You would think that by the end of the day, I’d be ecstatic. Home time! Nope. I trudged home. The walk was slow, heavy footed and thoughts of quitting kept swirling around my head.
By the time I got home, I couldn’t even give Mitch a smile. What happened to the the cheery, happy, upbeat me? Where did I vanish off to? I know I complain a lot about work, but who doens’t, right?? Right? Sorry, I really hope I’m not one of those people you delete on FB because I post way too much and it’s all negative stuff…
If you’ve never had a day like this where you felt like poop for no good reason, good for you. I applaud you. I would say that you’re lying but thumbs up to you!
Aside from thinking about wanting to quit my job altogether, I also thought about getting rid of stuff at home. I have friends who say I purge way too much – that I have nothing left to get rid of. This is true. I would also add that I am kind of addicted to the act of getting rid of things. It just feels so good. Who’s with me on this one??
I think one of the reasons my approach to minimalism is becoming a little more extreme is because I am thinking about the future and the possibility of moving. Moving away or even just a long getaway has been on my mind constantly for the past two years. The less I have, the less I need to pack up and deal with.
I’m always looking at small homes/cottages/rv’s on IG and imagining myself living in one. I want to purge more from the house as I picture where things would be placed. Check out instagram.com/RRC.rockwall on IG. I love these models.
There I go being sidetracked again. This time with small homes.
Back to getting rid of stuff. I went through my junk drawer. It’s more like 5 small mini drawers. I’ve gotten rid of so many things from this storage unit but it somehow keeps filling up. It annoys me to no end. I finally got rid of my small jar of pennies because Canada doesn’t even use pennies!! What the eff was I thinking keeping them? (I was afraid the bank wouldn’t even take them but the happily deposited $1.27 worth of pennies for me). I also tossed out my retainer that probably didn’t even fit. How would I know, I haven’t used it in over 10 years. Again, I don’t know what I was thinking saving it. There were a few other things that were trashed but it’s not enough.
Seeing all the money I spent on random stupid sh*t really makes me feel spoiled and dumb. How many trips could I have easily gone on had I not bought all the clothes I wore only once or not at all? What about the money spend on things that serve no purpose in the house except to look pretty? Faaack. What a waste. Having a smaller home definitely would help stop me from buying random sh*t since I wouldn’t have room to put it.
But, we live in a time of consumerism. Buy buy buy. If we have the money, spend it. For me, buying stuff definitely won’t help make going to work any less painful though.
Shedding that layer of extra ‘stuff’ makes me feel better. Makes a rough day at work not so bad. This is something I recently learned about myself. Funny how my work woes can be erased just by getting rid of junk in the house!
Becoming a digital minimalist is going to be a thing!